1 00:00:04,280 --> 00:00:07,600 SHE INHALES, EXHALES 2 00:00:11,640 --> 00:00:13,640 BIRDSONG 3 00:00:17,800 --> 00:00:19,199 KNOCK AT DOOR 4 00:00:19,200 --> 00:00:21,159 DOOR OPENS 5 00:00:21,160 --> 00:00:23,239 Ah, you're awake already. 6 00:00:23,240 --> 00:00:25,839 I smuggled an alarm clock in. 7 00:00:25,840 --> 00:00:28,039 We come as a pair now. 8 00:00:28,040 --> 00:00:30,639 Poor Agnes is saddled with me. 9 00:00:30,640 --> 00:00:31,640 I enjoy it. 10 00:00:32,680 --> 00:00:34,639 Your deer's been back. 11 00:00:34,640 --> 00:00:36,359 Oh, is that right? 12 00:00:36,360 --> 00:00:37,919 You see the horse chestnut tree? 13 00:00:37,920 --> 00:00:39,840 There are leaves missing at the bottom of it. 14 00:00:42,360 --> 00:00:45,119 Then let's sit here all day, 15 00:00:45,120 --> 00:00:48,239 wait until it comes back to us. 16 00:00:48,240 --> 00:00:49,520 Wouldn't that be nice? 17 00:01:40,280 --> 00:01:46,119 ? His ways are faithfulness and love 18 00:01:46,120 --> 00:01:51,600 ? For those who keep His covenant and will 19 00:01:52,800 --> 00:01:58,440 ? The Lord's friendship is for those who revere Him 20 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:07,200 ? And to them, He reveals His covenant. ? 21 00:02:09,720 --> 00:02:20,399 ? Our Father, who art in heaven 22 00:02:20,400 --> 00:02:27,599 {\an8}? Hallowed be Thy Name 23 00:02:27,600 --> 00:02:33,919 {\an8}? Thy Kingdom come. ? 24 00:02:33,920 --> 00:02:36,599 MAN: Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. 25 00:02:36,600 --> 00:02:40,799 It's been 48 hours since my last confession. 26 00:02:40,800 --> 00:02:42,239 And how can I help? 27 00:02:42,240 --> 00:02:44,639 Well, I have committed 28 00:02:44,640 --> 00:02:47,639 four acts of blasphemy and five... 29 00:02:47,640 --> 00:02:49,840 No, six of self-abasement. 30 00:02:51,160 --> 00:02:53,199 Seven, maybe, actually. 31 00:02:53,200 --> 00:02:54,839 You've... 32 00:02:54,840 --> 00:02:56,399 You've had a busy time. 33 00:02:56,400 --> 00:02:58,239 She just talks at me, 34 00:02:58,240 --> 00:02:59,559 day after day. 35 00:02:59,560 --> 00:03:02,879 Oh, "Brian's left his toenails all over the floor again. 36 00:03:02,880 --> 00:03:05,879 "Brian's making a mess in the bathroom." 37 00:03:05,880 --> 00:03:09,719 I'd love for my Alan to be making any of those messes. 38 00:03:09,720 --> 00:03:11,359 But she doesn't even... 39 00:03:11,360 --> 00:03:12,639 SHE SIGHS 40 00:03:12,640 --> 00:03:15,440 I find myself getting so frustrated with her. 41 00:03:17,200 --> 00:03:19,479 I don't see how you can take any wrong from finding 42 00:03:19,480 --> 00:03:20,800 your sister difficult. 43 00:03:21,880 --> 00:03:24,199 It's just when I kill her that I'll be in trouble? 44 00:03:24,200 --> 00:03:25,599 Yeah. THEY CHUCKLE 45 00:03:25,600 --> 00:03:27,440 That, I believe, is frowned upon. 46 00:03:28,640 --> 00:03:31,959 She's stronger, every day. 47 00:03:31,960 --> 00:03:35,279 And she's using this new energy 48 00:03:35,280 --> 00:03:36,759 to buzz around me. THEY CHUCKLE 49 00:03:36,760 --> 00:03:38,159 That's good. 50 00:03:38,160 --> 00:03:40,839 I uh, asked her along to these classes they do 51 00:03:40,840 --> 00:03:44,679 at the GP as a sort of partner, 52 00:03:44,680 --> 00:03:47,479 and she is taking it way too seriously. 53 00:03:47,480 --> 00:03:48,839 THEY LAUGH 54 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:51,640 She keeps getting me to practise this breathing stuff. 55 00:03:53,400 --> 00:03:54,719 THEY CHUCKLE 56 00:03:54,720 --> 00:03:56,839 And, you? 57 00:03:56,840 --> 00:03:58,120 Are you OK? 58 00:04:01,320 --> 00:04:04,800 The confessional's definitely not supposed to be about my feelings. 59 00:04:09,040 --> 00:04:10,800 Dad said that you'd visited him. 60 00:04:12,040 --> 00:04:13,479 He didn't say it in a nice way 61 00:04:13,480 --> 00:04:15,479 and I don't think what you said 62 00:04:15,480 --> 00:04:20,560 made any difference, but that was kind of you. 63 00:04:23,000 --> 00:04:24,680 It was a complicated discussion. 64 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:28,840 What did he say to you? 65 00:04:31,000 --> 00:04:33,080 HE INHALES, EXHALES 66 00:04:34,280 --> 00:04:37,119 He set me a challenge, 67 00:04:37,120 --> 00:04:38,280 which I didn't meet. 68 00:04:41,000 --> 00:04:42,519 Can't say any more than that. 69 00:04:42,520 --> 00:04:44,239 I'm sorry. 70 00:04:44,240 --> 00:04:46,320 Do you think he's going to be OK? 71 00:04:48,920 --> 00:04:50,160 Do you want him to be? 72 00:04:51,440 --> 00:04:52,520 Yes. 73 00:04:54,520 --> 00:04:55,920 I hope he will be. 74 00:05:03,440 --> 00:05:06,120 Francesca said I was allowed to make it mine. 75 00:05:08,520 --> 00:05:12,639 We had the opportunity to replant as we harvested, so... 76 00:05:12,640 --> 00:05:15,519 So you made some changes in what you planted 77 00:05:15,520 --> 00:05:17,040 and where you planted it. 78 00:05:18,560 --> 00:05:20,719 Quite bold, wouldn't you say? 79 00:05:20,720 --> 00:05:22,199 No, I... 80 00:05:22,200 --> 00:05:23,640 I wasn't even half out the door. 81 00:05:27,640 --> 00:05:29,519 ANNA SNORTS THEY LAUGH 82 00:05:29,520 --> 00:05:30,799 Oh, don't! Don't. 83 00:05:30,800 --> 00:05:32,639 Even as a joke. It's... THEY CHUCKLE 84 00:05:32,640 --> 00:05:34,200 Come on. Show me the worst of it. 85 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:40,679 I'm planning on scallions in half the cabbage patch. 86 00:05:40,680 --> 00:05:42,919 The other half will still have cabbages in. Hmm. 87 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:45,319 Well, I like scallions, and to be honest, 88 00:05:45,320 --> 00:05:47,519 no-one likes cabbages as much as me. 89 00:05:47,520 --> 00:05:49,519 So that's a good idea. 90 00:05:49,520 --> 00:05:53,599 And maybe more raspberries than strawberries in your polytunnel. 91 00:05:53,600 --> 00:05:55,199 Scandalous! 92 00:05:55,200 --> 00:05:58,399 I made a raspberry and rhubarb jam that people seemed to like. 93 00:05:58,400 --> 00:06:00,759 Yes. I tried it - at breakfast. 94 00:06:00,760 --> 00:06:02,080 It was delicious. 95 00:06:06,160 --> 00:06:08,359 Was it me? 96 00:06:08,360 --> 00:06:10,039 That made you go. 97 00:06:10,040 --> 00:06:11,399 Sorry? 98 00:06:11,400 --> 00:06:12,999 Was it how I behaved? 99 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:15,439 Were you disappointed? Or was it how the Abbess treated me? 100 00:06:15,440 --> 00:06:17,999 Were you disappointed in her? No. 101 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:20,639 No, it wasn't you. SHE INHALES 102 00:06:20,640 --> 00:06:22,159 Never you. 103 00:06:22,160 --> 00:06:23,679 It wasn't her, either. 104 00:06:23,680 --> 00:06:26,040 Although she did annoy me. BIMPE CHUCKLES 105 00:06:29,960 --> 00:06:33,239 Things are much better for me now - with her. 106 00:06:33,240 --> 00:06:35,039 The Abbess is... 107 00:06:35,040 --> 00:06:36,439 She likes you now? BIMPE SCOFFS 108 00:06:36,440 --> 00:06:39,039 Wouldn't go that far. THEY CHUCKLE 109 00:06:39,040 --> 00:06:43,119 It was a man who'd made me go. 110 00:06:43,120 --> 00:06:45,199 The handsome priest? 111 00:06:45,200 --> 00:06:46,839 Did everyone know? 112 00:06:46,840 --> 00:06:48,279 I saw you talking once. 113 00:06:48,280 --> 00:06:50,079 He was as into you as you, him. 114 00:06:50,080 --> 00:06:51,600 You're wrong there. 115 00:06:52,880 --> 00:06:54,640 I was ridiculous. 116 00:06:55,920 --> 00:06:58,639 I don't think so. I was always good at spotting it. 117 00:06:58,640 --> 00:07:01,359 Was my skill at school, for some reason. 118 00:07:01,360 --> 00:07:03,319 Maybe cos I wasn't into boys, 119 00:07:03,320 --> 00:07:04,599 I could read them. 120 00:07:04,600 --> 00:07:06,519 I'd tell the girls who'd fancied who. 121 00:07:06,520 --> 00:07:08,239 It was always very useful knowledge. 122 00:07:08,240 --> 00:07:10,399 Must've been hugely popular. 123 00:07:10,400 --> 00:07:13,519 I was the mad Christian dyke witch. ANNA LAUGHS 124 00:07:13,520 --> 00:07:17,039 What a combination! CHUCKLES: Yeah! 125 00:07:17,040 --> 00:07:18,320 ANNA CHUCKLES 126 00:07:20,000 --> 00:07:21,320 ANNA CLICKS TONGUE I... 127 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:25,320 ...was worried everyone was laughing at me. 128 00:07:26,880 --> 00:07:28,359 The lusty nun. 129 00:07:28,360 --> 00:07:29,679 ANNA LAUGHS RUEFULLY 130 00:07:29,680 --> 00:07:30,960 What a thing to be. 131 00:07:34,600 --> 00:07:36,800 You don't know how much you're loved, do you? 132 00:07:37,960 --> 00:07:39,679 No-one's laughing. 133 00:07:39,680 --> 00:07:41,959 No-one has laughed. 134 00:07:41,960 --> 00:07:43,639 They're just... They're... 135 00:07:43,640 --> 00:07:46,400 They're delighted to have you back with us. 136 00:07:47,720 --> 00:07:49,240 You're our Anna. 137 00:07:51,600 --> 00:07:52,840 You belong to us. 138 00:07:57,600 --> 00:07:59,960 INDISTINCT CHATTER 139 00:08:17,320 --> 00:08:18,360 Can we talk? 140 00:08:20,040 --> 00:08:22,200 Oh, er, yeah. I hoped we would. 141 00:08:24,200 --> 00:08:27,599 Awkward to air dirty pants in front of other people. 142 00:08:27,600 --> 00:08:29,879 I hope I'm not wearing dirty pants. 143 00:08:29,880 --> 00:08:32,799 Ah. I... I've got that phrase wrong. 144 00:08:32,800 --> 00:08:34,879 Dirty laundry. Ha, yes. 145 00:08:34,880 --> 00:08:38,120 Mind you, it's the, erm, same thing, I suppose. Yeah. 146 00:08:40,080 --> 00:08:43,560 You do know that she's returned home, Anna? 147 00:08:45,120 --> 00:08:46,360 I... Y-Yeah. 148 00:08:47,520 --> 00:08:50,320 Well, yes. So... So that just leaves you now, doesn't it? 149 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:53,999 HE SIGHS 150 00:08:54,000 --> 00:08:55,760 I don't know what to do with you. 151 00:08:57,600 --> 00:08:59,399 What are your options? PETER CHUCKLES 152 00:08:59,400 --> 00:09:03,439 Well, there are those who truly believe in you. 153 00:09:03,440 --> 00:09:06,039 You tried to get rid of me and got blocked? 154 00:09:06,040 --> 00:09:08,799 And there are others who think that you're damaged 155 00:09:08,800 --> 00:09:10,679 and that you might cause damage. 156 00:09:10,680 --> 00:09:13,120 And I wasn't blocked. I consulted. 157 00:09:14,480 --> 00:09:16,359 You do know, there's some priests, they... 158 00:09:16,360 --> 00:09:19,239 They come back stronger for having been broken, 159 00:09:19,240 --> 00:09:22,399 and that is why I was prepared to bring you here. 160 00:09:22,400 --> 00:09:26,959 Mm-hm. But the question is, what led to the break? 161 00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:30,680 People they... They use words like lust and love. 162 00:09:32,200 --> 00:09:33,560 But it is never that. 163 00:09:35,480 --> 00:09:38,959 Vows are not discarded for such things. 164 00:09:38,960 --> 00:09:41,479 Vows are discarded 165 00:09:41,480 --> 00:09:47,520 because of something here being unresolved up here. 166 00:09:49,640 --> 00:09:52,280 Is this your normal tactic, in your counselling? 167 00:09:53,600 --> 00:09:56,559 Because there's a surprising amount of anger in your words. 168 00:09:56,560 --> 00:09:58,399 PETER CHUCKLES 169 00:09:58,400 --> 00:10:00,999 You know... Aha. 170 00:10:01,000 --> 00:10:02,879 ...you are unusual. 171 00:10:02,880 --> 00:10:05,679 Amongst the young priests, I'm increasingly finding, 172 00:10:05,680 --> 00:10:08,319 that it's all about the liturgy. 173 00:10:08,320 --> 00:10:10,999 The social worker priest is rare. 174 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:12,079 I mean, there were... 175 00:10:12,080 --> 00:10:14,519 What do you think a priest should do? 176 00:10:14,520 --> 00:10:17,119 Bring people to God, 177 00:10:17,120 --> 00:10:20,200 so that all may bathe in His light. 178 00:10:23,240 --> 00:10:24,320 Not play God... 179 00:10:25,960 --> 00:10:28,959 ...without a thought to the consequences. 180 00:10:28,960 --> 00:10:31,599 Does this... Does that make me a conservative? 181 00:10:31,600 --> 00:10:37,399 Or, or does that make me careful with the needs of others? 182 00:10:37,400 --> 00:10:39,679 When we overstep, we risk. 183 00:10:39,680 --> 00:10:42,119 Them. It's inappropriate. 184 00:10:42,120 --> 00:10:43,399 It's wrong. 185 00:10:43,400 --> 00:10:45,399 What if help is what they need? 186 00:10:45,400 --> 00:10:47,760 Well, do we let them ask for help? 187 00:10:49,520 --> 00:10:52,160 Or do we tell them that they need it? 188 00:10:55,520 --> 00:10:58,320 David, you're so reckless. 189 00:11:00,720 --> 00:11:02,000 We should go in. 190 00:11:07,560 --> 00:11:09,040 MUTED CHATTER 191 00:11:17,560 --> 00:11:20,439 In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. 192 00:11:20,440 --> 00:11:21,999 ALL: Amen. 193 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:23,199 Thank you all for coming. 194 00:11:23,200 --> 00:11:25,559 You know, I do so like these meetings. 195 00:11:25,560 --> 00:11:29,479 It is a chance for us to affirm our success 196 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:32,479 and express doubts about our failures. 197 00:11:32,480 --> 00:11:35,679 Now, I hope you've all been sent the agenda. 198 00:11:35,680 --> 00:11:37,959 Let's start with the building fund. 199 00:11:37,960 --> 00:11:39,599 We've had a good quarter, 200 00:11:39,600 --> 00:11:42,919 so donations are high, which has allowed us... 201 00:11:42,920 --> 00:11:44,120 CHAIR LEGS SCRAPE 202 00:11:47,040 --> 00:11:48,880 I don't even know what she said. 203 00:11:50,560 --> 00:11:52,400 I just found myself... 204 00:11:54,440 --> 00:11:58,639 And so I...jumped. 205 00:11:58,640 --> 00:12:00,399 MUFFLED: Out of the window. 206 00:12:00,400 --> 00:12:01,639 I jumped out of the window. 207 00:12:01,640 --> 00:12:02,799 PETER: It's wrong. 208 00:12:02,800 --> 00:12:04,719 ECHOES: I can smell the booze on you now. 209 00:12:04,720 --> 00:12:06,440 PETER: Do we let them ask for help? 210 00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:09,759 ECHOES: It's inappropriate. 211 00:12:09,760 --> 00:12:11,599 MAN: Are you helping here?! 212 00:12:11,600 --> 00:12:14,919 PETER: Play God, without a thought to the consequences. 213 00:12:14,920 --> 00:12:16,199 ECHOES: You are weak. 214 00:12:16,200 --> 00:12:17,840 PETER: Bring people to God. 215 00:12:20,880 --> 00:12:22,680 ECHOES: You might cause damage. 216 00:12:24,600 --> 00:12:27,799 David, you're so reckless. 217 00:12:27,800 --> 00:12:29,280 HE EXHALES 218 00:12:30,520 --> 00:12:31,800 BODY THUDS 219 00:12:44,680 --> 00:12:46,800 Black coffee. Six sugars. 220 00:12:48,400 --> 00:12:49,520 OK. 221 00:12:51,840 --> 00:12:53,800 It works. Trust me. 222 00:12:57,080 --> 00:12:58,240 OK. 223 00:13:00,680 --> 00:13:02,080 You gave us all a fright. 224 00:13:05,800 --> 00:13:06,920 Just a stomach bug. 225 00:13:08,320 --> 00:13:09,560 Want to talk about it? 226 00:13:11,480 --> 00:13:12,879 Do you want me to call your sponsor? 227 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:14,080 Don't have a sponsor. 228 00:13:15,320 --> 00:13:17,439 I just come to the meetings. 229 00:13:17,440 --> 00:13:19,479 Not to judge, 230 00:13:19,480 --> 00:13:22,239 but those I know who don't have a sponsor are usually trying 231 00:13:22,240 --> 00:13:24,279 to avoid something. 232 00:13:24,280 --> 00:13:28,640 They're usually being a bit dishonest with themselves. 233 00:13:31,520 --> 00:13:33,159 You know, this is so kind, 234 00:13:33,160 --> 00:13:34,799 but do you mind if I go? 235 00:13:34,800 --> 00:13:36,200 I'd rather you didn't. 236 00:13:37,360 --> 00:13:38,600 All the same... 237 00:13:46,160 --> 00:13:48,960 FAINT THUMPING 238 00:13:51,880 --> 00:13:54,720 MUFFLED CLATTERING 239 00:14:08,680 --> 00:14:09,999 SOFTLY: What's happening? 240 00:14:10,000 --> 00:14:11,439 It's Polly. 241 00:14:11,440 --> 00:14:12,920 She's struggling to breathe. 242 00:14:41,560 --> 00:14:44,000 INDISTINCT CHATTER 243 00:14:54,520 --> 00:14:56,599 Mum? 244 00:14:56,600 --> 00:14:58,679 Oh. Hello! 245 00:14:58,680 --> 00:15:00,039 What are you doing here? 246 00:15:00,040 --> 00:15:01,919 Well, I didn't want to go up there. 247 00:15:01,920 --> 00:15:04,839 I assumed you already had enough attention on you. 248 00:15:04,840 --> 00:15:07,639 What, so you thought you'd just hang around on the off chance? 249 00:15:07,640 --> 00:15:09,759 Well, it's a regular haunt, is it not? 250 00:15:09,760 --> 00:15:11,079 Er, well, I... 251 00:15:11,080 --> 00:15:13,199 I've got some deliveries to do. 252 00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:14,400 You could help me? 253 00:15:21,280 --> 00:15:23,599 You've started smoking again? 254 00:15:23,600 --> 00:15:25,240 Don't tell your dad. 255 00:15:27,360 --> 00:15:30,039 I couldn't stop thinking about what I said to you. 256 00:15:30,040 --> 00:15:31,319 Whi... Which bit? 257 00:15:31,320 --> 00:15:34,999 The... The cruelty stuff, or the other stuff? 258 00:15:35,000 --> 00:15:36,960 Or was there any other stuff? Hmph. 259 00:15:38,280 --> 00:15:41,159 I met a boy when I was 15. 260 00:15:41,160 --> 00:15:42,399 Poorly dressed. 261 00:15:42,400 --> 00:15:44,039 Terrible moustache. 262 00:15:44,040 --> 00:15:45,799 He used to walk me home from school. 263 00:15:45,800 --> 00:15:48,079 I was at this terrible girl's school. 264 00:15:48,080 --> 00:15:49,759 You told me about the girl's school. 265 00:15:49,760 --> 00:15:51,519 Not about this boy. 266 00:15:51,520 --> 00:15:53,239 He didn't talk much. 267 00:15:53,240 --> 00:15:55,279 He'd just mooch along beside me. 268 00:15:55,280 --> 00:15:58,079 I'd always be embarrassed whenever he got near my house 269 00:15:58,080 --> 00:16:01,239 because my mother would watch out of the window. 270 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,639 She liked to interfere, my mother. 271 00:16:03,640 --> 00:16:05,719 Hmm, sounds familiar. 272 00:16:05,720 --> 00:16:06,960 Hmph! Yes. 273 00:16:08,080 --> 00:16:11,240 But my point is, I knew he wasn't very impressive. 274 00:16:12,840 --> 00:16:14,359 He had good eyes, 275 00:16:14,360 --> 00:16:16,399 but his shoulders were always hunched, 276 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:18,279 he didn't know what to do with his hair, 277 00:16:18,280 --> 00:16:20,080 and he had an acne problem. 278 00:16:21,520 --> 00:16:24,199 But his being, 279 00:16:24,200 --> 00:16:27,640 his insides were quite special. 280 00:16:28,960 --> 00:16:32,399 As was the fact that he was absolutely certain 281 00:16:32,400 --> 00:16:34,879 of what he felt about me. 282 00:16:34,880 --> 00:16:38,439 Didn't care if people laughed at him. Hmph. 283 00:16:38,440 --> 00:16:41,279 Just was as he was. 284 00:16:41,280 --> 00:16:45,079 Anyway, one day, my dad exploded at him. 285 00:16:45,080 --> 00:16:46,479 Nothing violent, 286 00:16:46,480 --> 00:16:49,239 but the things he said, he tore him apart. 287 00:16:49,240 --> 00:16:51,559 How he looked, how he spoke, 288 00:16:51,560 --> 00:16:53,359 what he was going to be. 289 00:16:53,360 --> 00:16:55,519 I can still remember most of the words. 290 00:16:55,520 --> 00:16:57,759 It was the worst thing that ever happened to me. 291 00:16:57,760 --> 00:17:00,439 It was certainly the worst thing that ever happened to him. 292 00:17:00,440 --> 00:17:01,839 Was he OK? 293 00:17:01,840 --> 00:17:03,519 What happened to him? 294 00:17:03,520 --> 00:17:05,639 Well, I married him, of course. 295 00:17:05,640 --> 00:17:07,279 Spent my life with him. 296 00:17:07,280 --> 00:17:09,039 Wha... It was Dad?! 297 00:17:09,040 --> 00:17:11,559 Well, I didn't mean it to be a surprise. 298 00:17:11,560 --> 00:17:12,600 Oh. 299 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:18,879 I know I've not always been the happiest mother. 300 00:17:18,880 --> 00:17:20,040 Hmph. Wife. 301 00:17:21,560 --> 00:17:23,279 I have had... 302 00:17:23,280 --> 00:17:27,719 Have an unhappiness of my own that I brought with me 303 00:17:27,720 --> 00:17:29,919 into the relationship that being with you, 304 00:17:29,920 --> 00:17:31,680 with Chris, hasn't resolved. 305 00:17:33,960 --> 00:17:34,960 But he has... 306 00:17:37,360 --> 00:17:40,919 When I imagine my life without him, 307 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:45,199 I see only turgid blood. 308 00:17:45,200 --> 00:17:46,759 Hmph. 309 00:17:46,760 --> 00:17:50,359 But why haven't either of you ever mentioned this to me before? 310 00:17:50,360 --> 00:17:53,040 That Dad - Dad would follow you home. Ha! 311 00:17:54,400 --> 00:17:56,559 I was lucky I met him when I was 15. 312 00:17:56,560 --> 00:17:58,800 I think I was on the verge of many mistakes. 313 00:18:01,920 --> 00:18:04,679 My home wasn't... 314 00:18:04,680 --> 00:18:06,079 I think I'd have been unhappy. 315 00:18:06,080 --> 00:18:08,799 Unhappier. Hmph. 316 00:18:08,800 --> 00:18:12,359 I don't know how he feels about that, of course. 317 00:18:12,360 --> 00:18:14,200 Rougher end of the bargain. 318 00:18:16,880 --> 00:18:19,679 Well, I wasn't supposed to make you cry! 319 00:18:19,680 --> 00:18:22,119 Fucking hell, whatever I say makes you cry. 320 00:18:22,120 --> 00:18:25,199 So now you're telling me that I should believe in love? 321 00:18:25,200 --> 00:18:28,559 I'm telling you, you're your father's daughter. 322 00:18:28,560 --> 00:18:30,879 That when you know, you know. 323 00:18:30,880 --> 00:18:33,159 When you love, you love. 324 00:18:33,160 --> 00:18:35,200 I'm saying sorry. 325 00:18:36,920 --> 00:18:40,759 When you joined up, became Sister Anna, 326 00:18:40,760 --> 00:18:42,719 you ripped my heart out. 327 00:18:42,720 --> 00:18:45,359 And then suddenly, you're on the other side, 328 00:18:45,360 --> 00:18:47,599 and it's supposed to be OK. 329 00:18:47,600 --> 00:18:49,200 I was confused. 330 00:18:50,840 --> 00:18:53,319 But I do believe 331 00:18:53,320 --> 00:18:57,319 if love is what you need, then... 332 00:18:57,320 --> 00:19:00,120 I... I stopped him. 333 00:19:01,920 --> 00:19:04,759 Mum, I stopped him from kissing me. 334 00:19:04,760 --> 00:19:06,840 Oh. Why? 335 00:19:09,240 --> 00:19:10,759 Because he wasn't ready. 336 00:19:10,760 --> 00:19:12,359 Because he's a priest. 337 00:19:12,360 --> 00:19:15,199 Because I was bloody stupid. 338 00:19:15,200 --> 00:19:17,559 So let me understand - 339 00:19:17,560 --> 00:19:21,719 you were ready to burn your life and he wasn't? 340 00:19:21,720 --> 00:19:24,119 And then he was, and you turned him away? 341 00:19:24,120 --> 00:19:25,559 Yes, exactly. 342 00:19:25,560 --> 00:19:27,079 But he kissed you? 343 00:19:27,080 --> 00:19:28,519 It was a mistake. 344 00:19:28,520 --> 00:19:30,919 So you ran away back here. 345 00:19:30,920 --> 00:19:32,519 Interesting. 346 00:19:32,520 --> 00:19:34,719 First time I've known you a coward. 347 00:19:34,720 --> 00:19:36,919 FIONA INHALES 348 00:19:36,920 --> 00:19:38,080 FIONA EXHALES 349 00:19:39,280 --> 00:19:42,359 I came here to be nice. 350 00:19:42,360 --> 00:19:45,199 I can't do nice. 351 00:19:45,200 --> 00:19:46,400 I'm sorry. 352 00:19:47,560 --> 00:19:48,960 I do love you! 353 00:19:50,640 --> 00:19:51,800 RECEDING FOOTSTEPS 354 00:19:58,440 --> 00:20:00,240 MAN 1, ECHOES: What have you done this time, David? 355 00:20:01,520 --> 00:20:04,240 MAN 2: This is serious and worrying behaviour. 356 00:20:06,040 --> 00:20:07,560 This could be a police matter. 357 00:20:09,360 --> 00:20:13,999 David hit a boy in the throat with a dinner tray. 358 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:15,399 I wasn't trying to! 359 00:20:15,400 --> 00:20:16,919 Dave, he asked you to be quiet. 360 00:20:16,920 --> 00:20:18,359 I was trying to get away from him. 361 00:20:18,360 --> 00:20:19,759 Are you helping here?! 362 00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,960 David is a dangerously disruptive presence here. 363 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:30,200 YOUND DAVID: Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. 364 00:20:32,200 --> 00:20:33,600 Are those the right words? 365 00:20:35,640 --> 00:20:39,399 They always told me I didn't have to come here, but I... 366 00:20:39,400 --> 00:20:42,520 FATHER VICTOR: You're just interested how it works. 367 00:20:44,360 --> 00:20:49,199 Or have you something you want to talk to me about? 368 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:51,119 I'm not sure. 369 00:20:51,120 --> 00:20:56,319 The way this works is you tell me what's troubling you, 370 00:20:56,320 --> 00:21:02,359 I listen, and then I give you a prayer or something 371 00:21:02,360 --> 00:21:04,600 to perform, so... 372 00:21:06,000 --> 00:21:07,759 ...whatever mistakes you've made, 373 00:21:07,760 --> 00:21:09,680 and we all make mistakes... 374 00:21:12,320 --> 00:21:15,040 ...God can set you on a journey of... 375 00:21:17,600 --> 00:21:18,719 ...correction. 376 00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:19,720 I hate them. 377 00:21:21,120 --> 00:21:23,079 "Who do you hate?" 378 00:21:23,080 --> 00:21:24,639 Everyone. 379 00:21:24,640 --> 00:21:26,440 I don't like anyone. I hate them all. 380 00:21:29,760 --> 00:21:30,800 "Who? 381 00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:34,680 "Your parents?" They're not my parents. 382 00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:38,639 They're good people. 383 00:21:38,640 --> 00:21:39,760 I just hate them. 384 00:21:41,560 --> 00:21:42,919 Is hate a sin? 385 00:21:42,920 --> 00:21:44,000 FATHER VICTOR CHUCKLES SOFTLY 386 00:21:45,440 --> 00:21:48,639 Most hate is temporary, it's passion, 387 00:21:48,640 --> 00:21:51,119 and so it can be challenged. 388 00:21:51,120 --> 00:21:52,280 It can be changed. 389 00:21:54,200 --> 00:21:55,320 I don't understand. 390 00:21:56,480 --> 00:21:59,959 Everyone talks about God's love. 391 00:21:59,960 --> 00:22:01,719 God loves you. 392 00:22:01,720 --> 00:22:03,280 God loves everyone. 393 00:22:04,520 --> 00:22:06,919 But you know the best thing about God's love? 394 00:22:06,920 --> 00:22:08,360 He wants to love you. 395 00:22:09,600 --> 00:22:11,080 He wants you to love yourself. 396 00:22:12,480 --> 00:22:13,560 And to love him back. 397 00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:17,680 And maybe, if you can do that... 398 00:22:19,240 --> 00:22:23,560 ...maybe you can find infinite love for others. 399 00:22:25,160 --> 00:22:27,320 Now, wouldn't that be beautiful? 400 00:22:40,920 --> 00:22:43,919 I'm afraid to tell you that Sister Polly Everand 401 00:22:43,920 --> 00:22:45,600 died three hours ago. 402 00:22:47,160 --> 00:22:49,200 I am so sorry for all our loss. 403 00:22:51,760 --> 00:22:54,239 Polly was here longer than any of us. 404 00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,319 She found great comfort here. 405 00:22:56,320 --> 00:22:57,840 God, here. 406 00:23:00,360 --> 00:23:03,599 The last thing she asked me, and sh-she was very weak, 407 00:23:03,600 --> 00:23:05,199 unable to say much, 408 00:23:05,200 --> 00:23:07,520 was that she be buried in the convent. 409 00:23:09,600 --> 00:23:11,199 We've never had that before. 410 00:23:11,200 --> 00:23:13,479 But having looked into the matter, 411 00:23:13,480 --> 00:23:16,839 she had no other surviving family, so if not here, 412 00:23:16,840 --> 00:23:19,760 I'm not quite sure where else to put her. 413 00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:23,960 I also think... 414 00:23:25,600 --> 00:23:28,280 ...I would like a trace of her left with us. 415 00:23:29,960 --> 00:23:32,640 I would like her to remain a part of how we live. 416 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:37,279 I've spent my life here looking up to her. 417 00:23:37,280 --> 00:23:40,479 For that and many reasons, 418 00:23:40,480 --> 00:23:41,680 a prayer for her. 419 00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:49,040 Dear Lord, we thank you for our sister, Polly. 420 00:23:50,960 --> 00:23:54,399 We thank you for her goodness and her grace, 421 00:23:54,400 --> 00:23:58,999 her certainty and her spirit. SOFT SINGING 422 00:23:59,000 --> 00:24:02,199 We hope she will find a way to serve you in the next life 423 00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:03,800 as well as she has in this one. 424 00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:10,200 We loved her. Amen. THEY SING 425 00:24:46,080 --> 00:24:47,160 HE LAUGHS 426 00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:30,320 Uh-huh. 427 00:26:03,360 --> 00:26:04,720 HE CHUCKLES 428 00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:42,960 THEY LAUGH 429 00:27:56,720 --> 00:27:58,800 BIRDSONG 430 00:28:00,400 --> 00:28:02,719 "They who dwell at the ends of the Earth 431 00:28:02,720 --> 00:28:05,519 "stand in awe of Your signs. 432 00:28:05,520 --> 00:28:08,920 "You make the dawn and the sunset shout for joy." 433 00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:17,479 Psalms, chapter 65, verse 8? 434 00:28:17,480 --> 00:28:18,800 Very good. Mmm. 435 00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:27,639 It wasn't a man for me. 436 00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:29,959 Or a woman, I should say. 437 00:28:29,960 --> 00:28:31,360 Modernity, etc. 438 00:28:32,640 --> 00:28:35,320 The absence of that was never a problem for me. 439 00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:40,279 But there were six months after I turned 50 440 00:28:40,280 --> 00:28:41,919 when I couldn't understand 441 00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:44,120 the lack of devotion of those coming in. 442 00:28:46,120 --> 00:28:47,599 Six months... 443 00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:49,040 It was probably three years. 444 00:28:50,720 --> 00:28:53,159 You'd been with us 15 years or so by then 445 00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:55,519 and I looked at you and I thought, 446 00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:59,200 "Maybe the time has come for me to take this all off." 447 00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:02,559 To let you take over. 448 00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:06,159 "Maybe I'd like to escape away." 449 00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:09,439 My family have a small farm in Donegal 450 00:29:09,440 --> 00:29:11,520 and my brother would make me very welcome. 451 00:29:13,560 --> 00:29:14,799 My point is, 452 00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:17,879 it's such a strange gift we're given, 453 00:29:17,880 --> 00:29:22,279 the certainty of a marriage without all that comes with that. 454 00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:24,959 Polly found it effortlessly. 455 00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:27,439 I don't think she ever doubted her journey. 456 00:29:27,440 --> 00:29:30,240 But most... 457 00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:35,160 ...most of us have moments of struggle. 458 00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:40,320 Is this you telling me that you forgive me for leaving? 459 00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:43,560 I still think about Donegal. 460 00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:49,999 As Abbess, you are both my children and my sisters 461 00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:52,240 and I, sometimes... 462 00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:55,599 ...when I'm in pain, as I am today, 463 00:29:55,600 --> 00:29:58,559 I sometimes wish I could just escape, 464 00:29:58,560 --> 00:29:59,760 but I don't. 465 00:30:01,320 --> 00:30:03,360 I stay and I try. 466 00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:08,599 Out there is no escape. 467 00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:09,800 I know. 468 00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:13,119 But you do understand, Anna, 469 00:30:13,120 --> 00:30:14,599 outside is hard, 470 00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:17,120 but this isn't a sanctuary from that. 471 00:30:18,120 --> 00:30:20,039 Both are work. 472 00:30:20,040 --> 00:30:21,840 Both have to be work. 473 00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:54,040 Hello? 474 00:30:59,320 --> 00:31:01,319 HE HESITATES 475 00:31:01,320 --> 00:31:03,520 Er, hello. I'm... I'm Father... I know who you are. 476 00:31:05,960 --> 00:31:09,640 I didn't want to go into the, erm, convent. 477 00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:14,359 You didn't want to face the Abbess. 478 00:31:14,360 --> 00:31:17,000 You hoped to find Sister Anna round the back instead. 479 00:31:20,920 --> 00:31:22,079 It's not quite that. 480 00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:24,639 She's just finding her peace again, 481 00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:26,240 and you want to disturb it? 482 00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:30,839 I just want to see her, talk to her. 483 00:31:30,840 --> 00:31:32,960 For her own good or for yours? 484 00:31:34,520 --> 00:31:36,799 We love her here. 485 00:31:36,800 --> 00:31:38,520 She loves being here. 486 00:31:40,600 --> 00:31:42,120 Don't disrupt her again. 487 00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:45,400 She's not as strong as you think. 488 00:31:46,680 --> 00:31:47,880 Go home. 489 00:31:49,800 --> 00:31:51,000 Please. 490 00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:23,560 INDISTINCT CONVERSATION 491 00:32:56,600 --> 00:32:59,319 Er, can I have a wall plug, please? 492 00:32:59,320 --> 00:33:01,319 A what? Wall plug. 493 00:33:01,320 --> 00:33:02,759 It's a white plastic thing. 494 00:33:02,760 --> 00:33:04,080 Looks like the head of an arrow. 495 00:33:05,800 --> 00:33:07,359 Yep. 496 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:09,039 Doesn't look like an arrow. 497 00:33:09,040 --> 00:33:10,839 Uh, and yet you still knew what it meant. 498 00:33:10,840 --> 00:33:12,000 HE SNICKERS 499 00:33:14,120 --> 00:33:15,280 Is it ready? 500 00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:18,280 No. 501 00:33:19,480 --> 00:33:21,479 When will I know you haven't broken everything? 502 00:33:21,480 --> 00:33:22,759 Haven't you got homework? 503 00:33:22,760 --> 00:33:24,079 You need my help here. 504 00:33:24,080 --> 00:33:25,280 HE CHUCKLES 505 00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:28,200 HE SNIFFS 506 00:33:29,520 --> 00:33:31,200 It's finished. Thank you. 507 00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:34,080 WATER SPLASHES 508 00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:39,599 Oh, it's tuna pasta. 509 00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:41,320 You're welcome to stay for dinner. 510 00:33:42,760 --> 00:33:45,600 Oh, erm, I'd better get back. 511 00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:49,279 Good decision. HE CHUCKLES 512 00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:50,400 It'll probably be horrible. 513 00:33:51,560 --> 00:33:53,439 SIGHS: I'm trying to sneak fish into everything 514 00:33:53,440 --> 00:33:54,879 and ruining everything. 515 00:33:54,880 --> 00:33:58,199 Most days, she gives up and just eats crisps. 516 00:33:58,200 --> 00:33:59,240 Huh. 517 00:34:00,720 --> 00:34:03,599 Well, that's a "well done for trying" smile. 518 00:34:03,600 --> 00:34:05,679 Just to let you know, I hate that smile. 519 00:34:05,680 --> 00:34:07,720 Sorry. I know the smile, too. 520 00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:13,080 When he saw you... 521 00:34:15,560 --> 00:34:17,640 ...are you allowed to say what he asked for? 522 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:20,080 HE HESITATES 523 00:34:21,160 --> 00:34:23,800 I don't think it's a good idea to... share. 524 00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:26,760 I still think about him. 525 00:34:30,160 --> 00:34:31,440 Not always in a bad way. 526 00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:37,199 Does that make me shit? 527 00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:38,320 No. 528 00:34:40,720 --> 00:34:42,800 Well, serenity feels like a long way away. 529 00:34:44,640 --> 00:34:46,199 I don't know if you know, 530 00:34:46,200 --> 00:34:47,280 I've also had... 531 00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:50,479 ...addiction issues. 532 00:34:50,480 --> 00:34:53,439 Yeah. Phil told me. 533 00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:55,319 Alcohol. 534 00:34:55,320 --> 00:34:56,520 Phil told me that, too. 535 00:34:58,280 --> 00:35:03,439 I just wanted to say if you ever do need to talk to someone, 536 00:35:03,440 --> 00:35:06,759 the, uh, the sign of the cross bit isn't so important 537 00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:09,239 that I can't talk to you as a human, too. 538 00:35:09,240 --> 00:35:11,279 That's kind. 539 00:35:11,280 --> 00:35:12,560 I've got a sponsor. 540 00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:15,079 But that's kind. 541 00:35:15,080 --> 00:35:18,559 I find the meetings really useful, 542 00:35:18,560 --> 00:35:21,679 but sponsors weren't ever really for me. 543 00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:25,199 Because the ones that want to fix don't like to be fixed. 544 00:35:25,200 --> 00:35:26,560 I've seen your type before. 545 00:35:28,560 --> 00:35:30,360 You've seen me before, too, I'm sure. 546 00:35:32,600 --> 00:35:34,240 A few people in similar places. 547 00:35:36,360 --> 00:35:37,880 Do they do OK? 548 00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:41,440 They come out the other side? 549 00:35:44,080 --> 00:35:46,880 Mm-hm. Yeah. They did. 550 00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:50,720 You want to ask about the ones like you? 551 00:35:53,240 --> 00:35:54,960 Ask if they sorted themselves out? 552 00:35:56,480 --> 00:35:57,520 Yeah. 553 00:35:59,520 --> 00:36:00,680 Well, one did... 554 00:36:02,480 --> 00:36:03,720 ...and one didn't. 555 00:36:05,440 --> 00:36:08,320 See, I was a lot more honest than you, then, wasn't I? 556 00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:12,920 Sure you won't stay for dinner? 557 00:36:14,160 --> 00:36:15,320 Yeah. 558 00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:20,960 Thank you, for the stair thing. 559 00:36:23,360 --> 00:36:24,720 I hope you make it through. 560 00:36:26,560 --> 00:36:28,120 Cos you're one of the good ones. 561 00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:32,440 I think you're one of the good ones, too. 562 00:36:35,360 --> 00:36:37,400 And I think we'll both make it. 563 00:36:46,520 --> 00:36:49,120 BIRDSONG 564 00:37:05,520 --> 00:37:06,960 HE EXHALES DEEPLY 565 00:37:25,280 --> 00:37:27,599 Almighty ever-living God, 566 00:37:27,600 --> 00:37:30,759 you rule both the living and the dead 567 00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:34,279 and are merciful to all. 568 00:37:34,280 --> 00:37:40,639 We humbly beseech you that those for whom we pour out our prayers 569 00:37:40,640 --> 00:37:46,880 may obtain pardon for their sins through Your tender mercy. 570 00:37:48,400 --> 00:37:50,279 Amen. Amen. 571 00:37:50,280 --> 00:37:51,640 ALL: Amen. 572 00:38:00,680 --> 00:38:01,960 SOFT GRUNT 573 00:38:05,720 --> 00:38:08,439 Do you find this place to be a sanctuary, Bimpe? 574 00:38:08,440 --> 00:38:09,960 I do. 575 00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:13,160 But you work hard at what it requires of you. 576 00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:15,879 Faith is hard. 577 00:38:15,880 --> 00:38:17,119 No, I'm... 578 00:38:17,120 --> 00:38:19,919 I'm not talking about faith, I'm talking about... 579 00:38:19,920 --> 00:38:21,999 ANNA SIGHS 580 00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:25,599 If I hadn't found a way for them to let you stay, 581 00:38:25,600 --> 00:38:29,520 would it have been easier if they'd just thrown you out? 582 00:38:31,040 --> 00:38:33,319 I'm grateful you didn't let them do that. 583 00:38:33,320 --> 00:38:35,319 Why? 584 00:38:35,320 --> 00:38:36,799 Well, what... 585 00:38:36,800 --> 00:38:38,120 What do you find here? 586 00:38:40,440 --> 00:38:41,560 Belonging. 587 00:38:42,680 --> 00:38:47,199 And... And sometimes that peace you talked of. 588 00:38:47,200 --> 00:38:48,320 Peace. 589 00:38:50,240 --> 00:38:51,360 Belonging. 590 00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:56,120 Good. 591 00:39:19,720 --> 00:39:21,439 You knew, didn't you? 592 00:39:21,440 --> 00:39:26,720 The sanctuary comment was you guiding me. 593 00:39:28,560 --> 00:39:30,720 I am a guide. 594 00:39:33,160 --> 00:39:36,040 You knew I didn't fit here any more. 595 00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:38,520 I did not. 596 00:39:39,840 --> 00:39:44,559 I just wanted you to think how this made you feel. 597 00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:46,280 How being here again made you feel. 598 00:39:47,600 --> 00:39:49,920 I want it to be home. 599 00:39:51,920 --> 00:39:53,120 But it's not. 600 00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:55,680 I think... 601 00:39:58,080 --> 00:40:03,680 I feel that staying here would be cowardice. 602 00:40:06,680 --> 00:40:07,800 This... 603 00:40:10,320 --> 00:40:13,279 This just isn't the life for me any more. 604 00:40:13,280 --> 00:40:15,199 Do you know what you will do? 605 00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:16,360 No. 606 00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:19,720 Are you going to him? 607 00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:22,560 No. 608 00:40:24,520 --> 00:40:25,880 It's not about that. 609 00:40:27,680 --> 00:40:29,520 I'm not sure it was ever about that. 610 00:40:33,240 --> 00:40:35,159 I have to... 611 00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:39,680 I have to find a new answer. 612 00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:42,880 A new peace. 613 00:40:47,600 --> 00:40:49,280 You are not a coward, Anna. 614 00:40:50,560 --> 00:40:53,720 No, I'm a... 615 00:40:55,360 --> 00:41:01,479 ...an unemployed, largely uneducated, middle-aged woman. Ha. 616 00:41:01,480 --> 00:41:03,799 But I do know a huge amount about the Bible. 617 00:41:03,800 --> 00:41:04,960 CHUCKLES: Mm-hm. 618 00:41:08,280 --> 00:41:10,520 TEARFULLY: I have loved sharing your home. 619 00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:13,680 God's home. 620 00:41:15,720 --> 00:41:18,480 And I... I do love God. 621 00:41:19,960 --> 00:41:21,200 I know. 622 00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:26,559 The last time, I... 623 00:41:26,560 --> 00:41:28,000 I left in panic. 624 00:41:30,520 --> 00:41:31,640 But this time? 625 00:41:32,920 --> 00:41:34,640 This time, I mean it. 626 00:41:41,640 --> 00:41:43,360 SOFTLY: But I have loved you. 627 00:41:47,720 --> 00:41:48,960 I love you. 628 00:41:53,320 --> 00:41:54,800 And I have felt your love. 629 00:41:56,880 --> 00:41:58,560 And I hope you have felt mine. 630 00:42:13,920 --> 00:42:15,280 CHOKED SOB 631 00:42:26,720 --> 00:42:28,600 BIRDSONG 632 00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:50,920 Subtitles by Red Bee Media 633 00:43:50,970 --> 00:43:55,520 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0